the sweet isn't sweet without the sour...

Don't be fooled by me
Don't be fooled by the face I wear
For I wear a mask, I wear a thousand masks
Masks that I'm afraid to take off
And none of them is me

I gave you the impression that I'm secure
That all is sunny and unruffled with me
Within as well as without
That confidence is my name
And coolness my game
That the weather's calm
And I'm in command
And that I need no one
But don't believe me
Please
My surface may seem smooth
But my surface is my mask
Beneath lies my smugness, no complacence
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion
In fear, in aloneness
But such a glance is precisely my salvation
And I know it
That is, if it's followed by acceptance
If it's followed by love
It's the only thing that can liberate me from myself
From my own self-built prison walls
It's the only thing that I can assure myself
That I'm really worth something
So when I'm going through my routine
Don't be fooled by what I'm saying
Please listen carefully and try to hear
What I'm not saying
What I'd like to be able to say
But for survival I need to say
But which I can't say

Probably the last moving compliment..(from my 2nd Grade Teacher =)

    His term was "extraordinary".. I was left speechless and overjoyed that before my eight remaining days in school, I have received such an honorable compliment from the least person that i'm expecting, My 2nd grade teacher, my... more

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Veronika Decides to Die

... cool book.. medyo censored.. pero sensible..